Could you help me understand?

I thought we were besties; I called you boo. I was not one of those friends that only talked about myself. In fact I was there for you every single time you had a meltdown. More times than not I was your biggest support system. You walked away. Could you help me understand?

Out of the blue, you said you were stepping away. You could no longer support me. Something about you could not stand by and watch me not do the work I needed to do to heal my traumatic life. Why not help me do just that? You chose to leave instead. Could you help me understand?

Your words cut deep, but your silence since then cuts deeper. I was pissed you dumped me. Your reply was we were not dating and that we were just friends so you didn’t dump me. That hurt; I never thought that, you were my best friend, why say that to hurt me even more? The fact that you thought we were a toxic friendship and that had sent you back to your codependent issues is not my fault. Could you help me understand?

I have to wonder whose advice you took to set boundaries with me. I have to wonder if they are there for you like I was. My guess is no. You pushed away someone who loved you and would have done anything for you, for what? Could you help me understand?

It hurts so much not having my friend to text with every day. I wonder how you could walk away so easily. I have been learning how to Set more boundaries in my life. I have not learned how to be the one boundaries are selected against; am I that bad? Could you help me understand?

Please tell me how you can go from ‘you are the only one who understands me” to ending our friendship within seconds. I never asked for anything, and I gave from the heart. I hope you have someone who shares with you and does not only seize. I do not hate you because love doesn’t end that quickly. I miss our deep conversations the most. I miss you, my friend. Could you help me understand?

You told me you did nothing wrong. Then why does it hurt so much? Could you help me understand?